Wrestling with Weakness

I got sick Wednesday, really sick. I don’t usually get really sick, I get a cold or headache, pop some vitamins, Advil and goto bed early and I’m fine the next day. Not this time, not even close.

In the next day and a half I got out of bed a couple of times, ate some mac and cheese, ramen soup and slept. Miserable and exhausted I asked God what was up. As most of us do, I reviewed my conscience sure my illness was due to some foolish choice or sinful secret I hadn’t fully confessed…Nope.

Next I considered what I might have eaten suspiciously… Nope.

Next I thought about my wife… she WAS sick the weekend before. But her symptoms and mine were completely different… Nope.

Then it occurred to me. Rest. Every text from my co-workers, every comment from my family and friends included that simple word. Brad, you need to get some REST.

I hate to REST.

God commands us to rest, heck I even blogged about it two weeks ago. Sometimes, when we ignore his commands, He chooses to lovely discipline us. I got disciplined Wednesday and thursday. I needed to be loved into bed for a day. I had been carrying too much and going far too long on fumes. I was mentally encouraged, spiritually upbeat and active, but my body was not, and I was in need of some downtime.

Take it from me, REST is coming one way or another. You can pick the time or place, or He will. God loves me, us so much he intervenes into our planned schedules to ensure that we take the time to rest. Like it or Not. Quit Wrestling with your weakness.

I think my “take away” lesson this week was to understand the great pride I have when I presume to believe I’m not like other people… When my attitude implies to myself and others…I’m stronger. I can take it. What I’m really saying is this… God, I appreciate your offer to give me strength in my weakness, but I can really handle it without you. Thanks anyway. I have plenty of strength to live my life… my advice, re-evaluate and allow God to give you His strength, even if it means a moment or two of forced rest.

John Piper has a great article on this… my friend Lonnie Bos shared it with me, so I’m sharing with you… check it out as the eloquence of Piper says its much better than I. http://www.desiringgod.org/resource-library/taste-see-articles/a-brief-theology-of-sleep

Practically painful this week, learning with you… “to keep in between the lines and on the road of life“.

Peace Out,



3 thoughts on “Wrestling with Weakness

  1. Brad…Love your blog! Just got this lesson taught to me the hard way myself. Almost 2 weeks sick with Pneumonia, because I didn’t REST when I knew I was suppose to be. I have lots of expectations I heap upon myself in an effort to be super mom and wife. The Lord continues to ask me to release my OWN expectations and agenda to Him, and to let Him be Lord of them. Such a hard thing for me to do, considering most of my life was so performance driven. Thank goodness Jesus is daily doing His work in me to perfect my faith in Him!! Have a great day, thanks for sharing!!

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